Thursday, September 27, 2007
Please pray for Jeff's depression and hopelessness...knowing that the treatments did not work, he feels very defeated right now. I need more strength & also hope...I'm finding that sometimes I don't believe myself when I tell him it's going to be okay.
You are a blessing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, September 24, 2007
Please pray for Jeff's attitude and continued strength for me...I am feeling mighty weak about now, but Jeff told me tonight that he needs me to be strong because he's ready to give up & refuse all treatment; that was when I decided I will not cry in front of him anymore...but...alone, that's a different story! Anyway, keep praying for our family and the Buccowich family also. We had dinner with Michael and Sue last night and it was a great evening! They are doing pretty good right now, but still need much prayer.
Through it all, we remain blessed and comforted by your love, kindness and prayers!!!
Sunday, September 23, 2007
1. You have to post these rules before you give the facts. 2. You must list one fact that is somehow relevant to your life for each letter of your middle name. If you don’t have a middle name, use the middle name you would have liked to have had. 3. At the end of your blog post, you need to choose one person for each letter of your middle name to tag.
Sorry Evonne, I took one of yours...but I have 6 names to come up with that have blogs...please forgive me!!!!!!
Friday, September 21, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Thank you again for all your comments, cards, gifts, and most of all prayers...God's will is perfect and we will rest in it, nest in it & fully be blessed in it!!!!
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
One doctor appointment down with a good result...today we went to see the Oncologist (cancer Dr.) and he was very busy so we had to see his Physician's Assistant, which I didn't like at first, but she turned out to be very nice and knowledgeable (except I think she's used to following Dr. Blitzer around instead of meeting with patients on her own...she seemed a little nervous). She said that our next step with Chemo would be the same pill at a higher dosage (500mg/day instead of 150mg/day) for 5 days out of a month for 12-24 months...sounds horrible, however, the only side affects are fatigue (yet less than chemo & radiation together), constipation (which we've been able to control just fine), and nausea (which we already have medication for), so we aren't too worried about that. Then we told her what the Radiologist told us about Jeff's memory loss being permanent...she was very surprised and said that in her experience with patients who have brain radiation, it is very common to suffer short term memory loss and it is almost always temporary...she also let us know that the radiation works on the tumor for maybe months after the treatments are complete, which might still be affecting his memory...so we believe this was a word from God, reminding us that He is in control and the memory return will be in His divine timing! On a side note, she was very happy that we were going for cognitive therapy..she said they don't utilize that enough with their brain cancer patients. So, I believe all of our prayers for direction have been answered thus far...we are anxious for the cog. evaluation tomorrow and a little more confident that Thursday's MRI will be okay too, although we still covet your prayers for healing of memory and cancer and patience for me!
Thank you again for all your prayers!!!!
Monday, September 17, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Just in case you're not sure what is involved in "short term memory loss" I thought I'd give you an example...from the time Jeff gets out of bed in the morning until he goes to bed for the night he will ask me 20-40 times what day it is. When we left to meet my family for dinner at 6:15p tonight, he had no idea what we did today...one thing we did is get his head shaved again...he doesn't even remember being at the barber shop! Basically, right now I can't have a normal conversation with my husband, my partner...when I am telling him things that are going on with me or something cute that Dalaynee did...he interrupts me to ask what day it is or what are our plans for the evening etc...it is very frustrating, but because of all the prayer being lifted up for us I am able to answer his questions in a calm voice to reassure him and help him not to feel so lost, and also, hold in my sharing or venting until I am able to talk to my mother or sister, who have been wonderful support and strong shoulders for me.
Basically, Jeff & I both feel that this tumor is not going to kill him...but...our uncertainty about what is next brings on fear! Please continue to pray for strength, patience for me, and comfort for the fear!
As always, we would have nothing without our church, family & friends...Bless you!!!!
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
I have a quick prayer request for cousins of mine in Arkansas...Tim, Lanette & James denHollander...
Please add them to your prayer lists...Thanks!!!!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Our little girl is growing up!!!! Today was her first day of preschool!!
This is her and her teacher, Mrs. Lisa (we did kid's klub with Lisa for quite a few years...we love her!!!)
After the bell is rung, all the kids get in a circle and hold hands to pray
"Heavenly Father, hear our prayer. Thank you for your loving care. Guide us through our preschool day, as we learn and as we play. Help us to be kind and true in everything we say and do AMEN"
Dalaynee was very excited! It wasn't too hard for me to let her go...and since she knows the surroundings well (it's at our church) it wasn't hard for her at all!!!
Bye Mom!!!!They are trying to raise money to remove the sand from the sand box (it's fairly large)...it seems that some of the neighborhood cats are mistaking it for a big litter box...so probably a good thing to get the sand out...anyway, this means that we already have a fund raiser in preschool!!!! I told Dalaynee that she had to ask our neighbors if they would like to buy something for her school...although she says borrow for buy.
Well, other than that...Jeff's memory is a tad bit better, keep praying for restored memory and a clean scan on Thursday (shrunk or gone). Thank you all!!!! Blessings!!!